Taking it easyI’ve always been bad at writing, even a short text message can take me hours and I don’t know what causes this or how to fix it. Initially I wanted to make a recap of my 2025 but it quickly became too sad to read, and now it’s almost february! To make it short, I think lately it’s been really hard for me to accept that people change, and definitely not always for the best. And that it’s better for you to drift away from them, because the mental image based on the memories you have of them conflicting with reality can be too painful to bear. So, for now, I’d like to concentrate on the positive aspects of my life, for my own sanity.
“This year I’ll read x number of books, I’ll go y number of days to the gym, I’ll learn z number of songs”. I’ve never liked doing this. That’s just setting yourself up for failure. But in general having activities you stick to is something very healthy to do. After finishing university it’s been hard for me to find a schedule that works, because a monumental problem of mine is that if just one thing happens out of schedule, then my mind goes into chaos mode and it takes me about 2 weeks to adjust back to reality. I WISH I was joking about this, it’s horrible.
But I’ve been working out consistently, picked up the guitar again after having to drop it multiple times due to a neck injury (yesterday I had some vertigo though, but I’m hoping it’s unrelated…) and I’ve been reading Clannad right before going to sleep. Maybe it’s the gorgeous soundtrack, the nostalgic KEY art style or the little nightlight I bought for my dog, but it’s super relaxing. I’m emulating the switch version which lets you switch (!) between the English and Japanese script on the fly so I’m also practicing on the side.
I’m also playing FFVII Rebirth but this is the one thing I can’t seem to find some time for. I prefer to play games for 3-5 hours at a time so I’m saving it for the weekends, but if I spend too long without playing something I start going cranky lol. So this is something I still have to figure out.
I want to save up money, I don’t want to overwork myself, and I want to spend as much time as possible with my dog while she’s still here with me. I cannot put into words just what this dog means to me; she might as well be considered a guardian angel. I also want to learn more things; I have a bunch of textbooks I want to check out and little projects that are still simple ideas in my head. I want to try making a game in assembly! Now that I have a better laptop, learning blender is also a possibility…
The css for this post is based on the silver/metallic theme from Windows XP. This is the theme I used for the longest time before I tried out a bunch of themes from Deviantart, and therefore whenever XP is mentioned I rarely think about the default blue “Luna” theme. I wanted to add more features to make it resemble a real XP desktop but it was a pain in the ass, so this is it. The thumbnail for this entry is Phon Coast from FFXII. The menu I made for blog posts is based on one of the menus from Xenosaga Episode III. I actually never finished Episode I, but now that I can emulate it I want to try the undub. It’s still missing a background image. The Chiyu gif was meant to be a placeholder but this is her home now. The thumbnail is Besaid from FFX.
Ahhhh I want to go to the beach!!!
Coctel